Patricia Godley

When I was younger I always had mixed feelings about Christmas, I eagerly looked forward to it and yet every year I found myself needing to retreat alone, being taken over by sadness.  Today I see why. Christmas was celebrated with such indulgence, covered in commercial varnish. 

 This will be my first Xmas at home in several years and I admit that I was nervous about it.  But I see the change in people.  People choosing less over more.  How blessed we are to be able to make such a choice.

Yes, Christmas is a pagan holiday.  The actual birth of Jesus is a mystery and there must be a divine reason for that. Whether its roots are pagan are not, Christmas is a time to reflect on the birth of Jesus. 

How majestic it all is.

How He came down to earth, to redeem us, a lost race. 

How He became man and remained God.  

“The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel” (which means “God with us”). Matthew 1:23

Immanuel – God is with us. 

Jesus Christ is God with you.  

He’s not pushing you, He’s not pulling you. 

He’s with you.

Through your salvation, through your struggles.

Christmas should be in our hearts every day.

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

Luke 2:14

I loved reading the  book of Exodus.  It’s an exciting story of How God saves the Israelites from slavery, using Moses as a prophet ( a man with a supposed speech impediment), taking them through the wilderness and to the promised land. 

As He did with me. As He wants to do with all of us. 

God literally and biblically took me through the wilderness. Saving me from the slavery of my own worldly desires, of my own sins.  From the confusion of Sri Lanka, to the ruggedness of Tanzania, to the solitude of the Laurentian woods in Canada. 

Until I got it.

Until I finally understood.

Though I received my baptism in March, It is only this past summer that I can truly say that my heart has understood the significance of the cross.

That I finally understood that what Jesus did for us at Calvary hill is the only hope for humanity.

I come from a background where we mocked it, we would joke about His dying for our sins. 

So the unveiling was long. And I pray that you are not as stubborn as I was. 

Even after my baptism, living in a church, I would spend my free time, looking for loopholes.  I spent months researching :

Did Jesus go to India, maybe that was where He learned some supernatural tricks? Are Krishna and Jesus similar?  The lost years of Jesus?

 I was listening to Alan Watts again. I even walked away from God  for a few days, looking for answers in the same places I use to, meditation.  And the devil is so sly, in those few days, he sent me a man, exactly the type I like, a man that told me that he had dreams and visions of Jesus. He would tell me that Jesus would visit him and told him that He  didn’t die on the cross.  The temptation to walk away from Jesus was so strong.

But this time I saw it. 

I saw what was happening to me when I was walking away from God. 

And I came running back, asking for forgiveness for my weaknesses.  Once again,  He took me back with open arms. 

Even then, It still took me a few more months.

  God is so good. He is so patient. Waiting for me, as I researched into  every single doubt.

As I have mentioned before, I didn’t want to believe. I really really wanted to become a Tibetan Bhuddist. 

Buddha tells us to have right thoughts, right words, right actions.  But nowhere does he tells us how. Because I wanted to, I truly wanted to have right thoughts, say right words and do right actions but sometimes I didn’t. Sometimes I had thoughts of lust, I spoke words of pride, and I acted out of greed …. 

the hours I have spent in yoga and meditation, torturing myself over why did I have thoughts I didn’t want to have. 

In the Quran, it states that Jesus did not die on the cross and thus was not resurrected. Islam teaches that on judgement day, your good deeds and your bad deeds will be measured out.  Until then, you don’t know if you’re going up or down. Until then, you have to work for your salvation, following the five pillars. 

Islam , Bhuddihsm  and  other spiritual paths require you to work your way to Moksha, nirvana, paradise, etc. 

But the cross. 

The cross is a gift.

A gift from our Heavenly Father.

God loves us, He loves you,  so much that He sent his only Son to die for us, for you, so that we could live in eternity with Him.

  He would rather die than be without you. 

And all you have to do is have faith. 

Isn’t it perfect? 

I know for some humans it’s difficult to swallow, as our ego wants to prove our righteousness, that we can do it ourselves, that we are good. For others , it’s difficult to believe that someone loves you that much, that you are worthy of such perfect pure love. 

I pray that God opens your heart and your mind to understand the perfection of it all, from the beginning to the end. It was the only way, and it’s so perfect. 

Ephesians 2

By Grace Through Faith

2 And you were dead in the trespasses and sins ² in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— ³ among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body^[a] and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind.^[b] 4 But^[c] God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, ⁵ even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—⁶ and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, ⁷ so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.⁸ For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, ⁹ not a result of works, so that no one may boast. ¹⁰ For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

December 21st 2018 was the date that God had previously given me as the beginning of my new life. He had given me time to mourn my old life, knowing what a nostalgic coward I was.

I was in Tanzania at that time, spending time with Maliki. That night, I woke up being drawn to the window, someone, something was there. For me.   I could feel it, I knew it was there.  I looked but I didn’t see it.

The next morning, they told me that a lion was on our premises. I immediately knew that this lion was sent by God.  At first, I thought He was simply telling me to be brave and courageous,  like a lion, for this new life He has set out for me.

It was 10 days later, January first.  I had plans to go to the market, but God has other plans.  I could hear music playing, not far away. I thought people were still celebrating. As I left my home, turning right towards the market, my body turned left following the music.  I found myself at the steps of a small rickety wooden church. I’ve been to many ashrams, temples, mosques, retreats, holy sites but nothing comes close that what took me over that day.
His love, His grace, almost knocking me to the floor…

I now understand that the lion meant lion of Judah.
Jesus.

Jesus is the Lion of Judah.
A few days later, alone in my room in Dar Es Salaam, the night before my flight back to SL. I said OK. I called out to God, and literally said ‘ok, let’s try this Jesus thing.’

Forgive me for such bad wording.

Immediately. At that exact moment. the attacks began.
They were not happy.

 

 

With celebrities like Kanye West declaring Jesus is King  ( which He is, but always remember that demons know that too), it is bringing about questions of their true intentions.

This is what Christians pray for.  That people like Kanye West who are deeply entangled in the kingdom of darkness be released by the grace and mercy of God and enter the kingdom of light.

However, as Christians we also need to judge his sincerity.

Matthew 7:15-20
‘Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheeps’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.

Ye shall know them by their fruits.  Do men gather grapes of thorns, or dogs of thistles?

Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.

A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.

Every tree that bringeth not forth food fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.

Wherefore by their fruits Ye shall know them.’

Especially in these last days.

Matthew 24: 10-14

’At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people.
Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.  And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.’ 

Looking closer at Kanye, he has already claimed to be a Christian in the past.  Yet he has also stated to have sold his soul to the devil. He calls himself yeesus which is blasphemy.  And we all have seen him fall victim to pride, exalting himself.

Then he was hospitalised.
Is he now under the influence of mk-ultra, misleading the masses to the antichrist?

2 Cor 11: 13-15

’For such people are false apostles, deceitful workers, masquerading as apostles of Christ.  And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.  It is not surprising, then, if his servants also masquerade as servants of righteousness.’

But God worked a miracle on me, perhaps He’s working one on Kanye…

Well, I had written this last night and this morning I wake up to the news that Kanye and Joel Osteen are teaming up.  Which answers our questions…

Be careful out there, brothers and sisters.
Heavenly Father,

in these last hours, we pray that You bless us with spiritual understanding and wisdom, to discern the things of Your kingdom.  We desire to know the truth, Your truth. Protect us as we walk like solitary sheep amongst a hungry pack of wolves.
We pray for discernment, Father God, to be wise as a serpent but harmless as a dove.  

 

1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

² I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

³ Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.

⁴ He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.

⁵ Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;

⁶ Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.

⁷ A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.

⁸ Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.

⁹ Because thou hast made the Lord, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;

¹⁰ There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.

¹¹ For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.

¹² They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.

¹³ Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.

¹⁴ Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.

¹⁵ He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.

¹⁶ With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.

What I loved about ashtanga was the observation and realisation of the impermanence of my thoughts.  How I could carry a belief around like an anchor and watch it dissipate with time.

For example, when I arrived at the second series, at eka pada sirsasana (foot behind the head pose), I truly 100% believed, no doubt whatsoever, that I could never ever achieve such a feat ( no pun intended).  I would  even try to convince my teacher, and other practitioners:

1. because it’s incredibly difficult
2. because  my torso is long and my legs are short, it seemed physically impossible, square peg round hole kinda thing.

But I practiced, and one day my foot reached my ear.  I kept practicing, and one day my foot slipped behind my head. Not gracefully, but it happened. 

The impossible became possible.

It had me thinking what else in my life am I believing to be impossible that might actually be possible:

A successful business? Healing a broken relationship ? Overcoming an addiction? 

It is this realisation that opened the door to Sri Lanka.  It seemed impossible to leave, to leave my business, my family, my life.  

But it happened. 

SL was a mind trip on its own.  After two months, I wanted to run back home.  However, I also knew that if I stayed still, and didn’t panic, something might happen.  And something did.  God revealed Himself to me.

A few crazy moments had to happen before that divine encounter. Many uncomfortable moments.  Coming face to face with my demons, my judgements, my beliefs, my fears.  

There were times I ended up with people I didn’t know, in places I didn’t know, speaking a language I didn’t know. My mind would panic , trying to convince me, perhaps trying to protect me : “ok, girl, this is it, this is where they rape you, steal your bag and dump you in a ditch.”  When I would actually come to understand the situation, it was usually something along the lines of : “we’re going to prepare you a special traditional Sri Lankan meal in your honour.”

I was constantly analysing situations and people according to my past, according to the beliefs that my culture and my experience have taught me to believe. I realised how many moments I must have misconstrued, and ruined because I reacted to these false beliefs. Both abroad and at home.  Not seeing the situation or the person in their truth.

It was like that about Christianity, and Jesus. I tried everything to NOT believe.  I did not want to follow a spiritual path with Jesus. Anything, anything but Jesus.  I wanted to be a mystical Sufi, twirling and reciting poems by the moonlight.  Or a yogi, sitting atop the Himalayas, adorned in prayer beads. 

But He kept dropping me hints. I kept telling Him to go away, that He didn’t have what I needed. 

I believed that only uneducated people or people that lived desperate, difficult lives believed in Christ.  I believed that Christians were closed minded and were to blame for a majority of the suffering in this world. And part of it is true, but a true Christian, a true follower of Christ would not have done such atrocities. It took me a lot of time and research to see, to see through the ocean of lies around Jesus and true Christianity.  To see through the falsities that have been created by people with an agenda, to lead us into fear based lives. 

I understand that this is why I received a backlash when I launched my blog.  They only saw what they have been trained to see. Jesus = bad , Christians = wrong, judgemental, dangerous.

We surround ourselves with people that think like us, that act like us. We hardly ever scratch the surface of different, because it’s uncomfortable.  And people don’t want to be disturbed, they don’t want their lives shaken, their opinions challenged, their beliefs confronted. Because maybe, just maybe, they might find out that they might have been wrong about a thing or two. 

And boy, oh boy, take it from me, it’s really messy when that happens!!!

So I am writing this post as a response to the backlash, not out of resentment because I understand you all completely. I was just like you. I simply want to clarify what Christianity is to me, what Christianity is in its true essence :

Compassion towards all, forgiveness, cooperation, caring and sharing with the poor and the oppressed, justice for orphans and widows, loving others more than myself. 

Jesus gives me the strength to put my worldly desires aside and fills me with the desire to love and care for those in need, around me and beyond.  

That’s just a tiny part.  The whole point of this blog, of my life as well,  is to demonstrate to others the beauty and uniqueness of Jesus.  I pray that God will allow me to do that with grace and love. 

May God’s peace and grace be with you all

I was in Kathmandu in the tourist area, Thamel, when a man approached me with the intention of selling me drugs.   At that moment, I heard God’s voice, asking me to tell him.  So I interrupted him and told him what God wanted him to hear.  ‘God loves you,’ I said softly. At that moment, he immediately broke down, crumbling to his knees, tears flowing out of his eyes.  We went to an alley to avoid the gaze and judgement of the crowd.

He told me his story, how he use to be a hiking guide and had a successful career but broke his leg and lost everything, fell into a life of drugs and crime.  He had two children and a wife but hadn’t been home in over a month, sleeping on the streets, too ashamed to go home as he had no work, and could not provide food for them.  We prayed together.  We bought some groceries and went home to his family.

I thank God for that beautiful encounter, for trusting me to share His love and mercy with that man and his family.  

I use to think that God was mean, and judging and closed minded.  I wanted nothing to do with Him because He had created such an unjust world, where so many are suffering. 

When I started to believe, I was angry, I was very angry at God. In SL, I met people, people that were living joyful, peaceful lives, full of grace.  I was so mad at Him asking Him why did He make me suffer so much?  I wondered what if I had succeeded at killing myself, would You have sent me to hell? So I would have lived a life of pain, a life of what seemed like hell on earth and then been punished and sent to eternal hell as well?

How was that fair, how was that just?  Because honestly, I didn’t know,  I didn’t know how to live differently than the way I was living.
Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.” Luke 23:34

I didn’t know that  God existed. 

I heard about Him, but I certainly didn’t feel His presence in my life. The God they told me about was going to punish me, punish me for things that didn’t even seem bad, for things that I didn’t feel like I had any other choice but to do.

Why would I want to know this God?

No one told me. 

I didn’t know that God was loving. 

And I certainly didn’t know that God loved me. 

I didn’t know that He wanted me to know joy and peace. 

I didn’t know that He wanted to protect me.

I didn’t know that He loved every single one of us so much, that He sacrificed his only Son. 

 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

And we don’t even know. 

 

In an earlier post I quoted Brennan Manning.  Brennan Manning suffered from alcoholism for a majority of his life.

He says that on judgement day, Lord Jesus will ask us one question:

“Did you believe that I loved you?”

Christianity is not a set of judgements, rules and moral codes, it’s a love affair. 

“Because salvation is by grace through faith, I believe that among the countless number of people standing in front of the throne and in front of the Lamb, dressed in white robes and holding palms in their hands (see Revelation 7:9), I shall see the prostitute from the Kit-Kat Ranch in Carson City, Nevada, who tearfully told me that she could find no other employment to support her two-year-old son. I shall see the woman who had an abortion and is haunted by guilt and remorse but did the best she could faced with grueling alternatives; the businessman besieged with debt who sold his integrity in a series of desperate transactions; the insecure clergyman addicted to being liked, who never challenged his people from the pulpit and longed for unconditional love; the sexually abused teen molested by his father and now selling his body on the street, who, as he falls asleep each night after his last ‘trick’, whispers the name of the unknown God he learned about in Sunday school.

‘But how?’ we ask.

Then the voice says, ‘They have washed their robes and have made them white in the blood of the Lamb.’

There they are. There *we* are – the multitude who so wanted to be faithful, who at times got defeated, soiled by life, and bested by trials, wearing the bloodied garments of life’s tribulations, but through it all clung to faith. 

My friends, if this is not good news to you, you have never understood the gospel of grace.”

 

Get through the first minute, and listen until the end.

Behold, the days are coming,” says the Lord GOD, “That I will send a famine on the land, Not a famine of bread, Nor a thirst for water, But of hearing the words of the LORD.

I live in Quebec.  I despised living here when I was young, but I didn’t know why.  All I knew is that everytime I left for a trip, short or long, I would always cry my way home. 

Today I understand why. Even though most people would identity themselves  as Christians, Quebec is a land of godlessness.

We have many, many churches everywhere, but they are empty.

However, our bars, restaurants and malls are filled with people. People that carry hostility in their hearts. A hostility that seems to be growing.  At the mention of the word God , an uncontrollable rage becomes them.   

Of all the places I have been, I find Quebec to be the saddest and darkest.  In the whole of Canada, Quebec has the highest rate of child poverty, suicide, divorce, illegitimate births.

When I say the world is upside down, this is what I mean. No one even knows, they don’t even know how far away from their own humanity they are. They don’t even know how many demons they carry with them.  They spend their days in sadness or anger, in addiction, in mistrust, thinking that this is life.

Our land needs help.  We are in need of a spiritual revival, of a great awakening.

We need to learn how to smile, to laugh, to share , to love.

We need to learn to be grateful,  to be compassionate and cooperative.

To value people.

To value food and water.

To value ourselves. 

To trust.

Heavenly Father,  I pray for my people and for my land. May You fill this province with the Holy Spirit. May there be a revival in our land, where people will be released from the darkness, released from their slumber. Please Father, have mercy on us all.

Spiritual warfare is rampant.

Brothers and Sisters.

It’s time to take a stand. Open your eyes. We live in a society, in a world where good is now considered evil and evil is now good.  

As you know, things shifted for me in Sri Lanka.  While there, I saw first hand the destruction of humanity.  I saw humble, innocent people being misled.  Being fooled to replace their  natural healthy diets to artificial and chemically enhanced food,  alcohol and drugs, pharmaceuticals, western music and movies, loss of family values, loss of identity , 

Forgive my naïvety, but at first I concluded that I landed in a magical land of beautiful beings and that there was a war on the people of Sri Lanka.  Their beauty, righteousness, goodness, holiness were being replaced by ungodly things.  

Then I went home to Canada.

And I saw the truth. There was a war on us too.  But we had already lost the war.

I could see the despair, the pain, the fear in the eyes of all.

There is a war on consciousness and people are out of alignment not only with their divine purpose but with their own humanity.

There is a war between the Most High and his adversary and our humanity is at stake.

My dear Brothers and Sisters, our society has gone off the rails:

• we have a whole generation that is medicated
• A majority of people have a severe addiction to either drugs, alcohol, pornography, food, video games etc…
• Children are now confused of their own genders
• People are willingly accepting to have a chip installed in their bodies
• The elite and powerful are involved in child abuse and satanic rituals
• Suicide is rampant

How are we still standing????

There is only one answer and that is only by God’s mercy. 

You all know there is something amiss in our society.  I know you all think there is nothing you can do, so you keep trudging to work, paying your bills, talking about Netflix.  

Please wake up, and realise that is exactly what they want you to do.  

The world needs you. It needs you to wake up and to fight . Fight for the kingdom of God. 

There is light and there is darkness.

Which side are you on?

He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters abroad.

Matthew 12:30

Heavenly Father, please show me the grip the Devil has on me and the world.  Make me humble enough to be a vessel for You. Make my heart hungry enough to fight for the glory of your Kingdom.  Use me beyond my natural ability in ways that only You can do.  Fill me with Your light so that I can be a light to those in darkness.

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.”

Matthew 22:37

There was a time when I did not know God.  I would only call out to Him when collapsed on the bathroom floor begging Him to end my life. In those dark days, if someone asked me if I believed in God,  I would either say no or that I believed in energy, not really comprehending what that even meant.

When I walk around our world today seeing the divinity of it all, I feel so embarrassed of my blindness.

His work is perfect: the uniqueness of a snowflake or a grain of sand, 350 000 varieties of beetles, your tears and your laughter, your love…

I personally have experienced too many miracles on my spiritual journey that I cannot deny God’s existence.  But most people from my past are atheists.  Sadly,  I can understand why many choose not to believe.

Especially when living in a place like the west, surrounded by greed, sexual perversion, selfish ambitions, idolatry, gluttony, hatred.  Surrounded by godlessness.

People running around crazy eyed, holding on to life by their man made strings knowing full well that they can and will break at any moment.  

People that are manipulated by artificial constructs like money, governments, and corporations. 

People that are fed stories and lies. 

Telling us that we are just an accident.  That we evolved from slime, floating around in an infinite purposeless universe. 

Think about it.

Think about how much easier it is to control humanity, to control you, when you believe that you came from nothing, going nowhere, with no purpose. Of course they want you to believe that. They don’t want you to know your Creator and that you were created with a purpose.  A purpose beyond the boundaries that you and this world have restricted you to.

I know that you all feel it. 

That feeling that tells you there is something more to this life, to your life. 

Question yourself as to why you believe what you believe , or don’t believe what you don’t believe. Dig deep and  answer that question with honesty and clarity.

Do your beliefs come from research and intuition or does it come from your family, your culture, or media?

Stewart Loy sums it up nicely:

” the amazing thing about the human conscious is this: that even if you don’t believe what I’m saying, you believe what I’m saying.  That even if you reject the truth of what I’m saying, there is rooted inside of you a conviction which you can suppress with the years, but which is there nonetheless but which is telling you that these things are true”

Heavenly Father, we pray that you shed the illusion of darkness that has become rampant in our society today . Please Father, open the eyes and hearts of those that do not know know You, of those that have turned away from You.  Bless them with Your mercy Father, for they simply  do not know.

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