When I began my healing journey, I spent my days looking for answers through other people, people that seemed to have it all, people that promised me a new shiny happy life :
“21 days to a life of abundance , happiness and health”
“ how to manifest what you desire”
I don’t deny that it had its purpose in my journey, as everything played its part in my path to God. But I can now see how misleading it is. Plus, There was always a part of me that could not comprehend on why is healing so expensive.
Humanity is confused, both in the church and in the new age movement, thinking that God is liberal love and that He wants you to have the life of your dreams. But what we want and what we need, both as individuals and as a collective, are completely different things. Only God knows what we truly need.
We have been misled in thinking that life is about health, wealth and happiness as oppose to salvation, hope and joy. We have been misled in thinking that freedom comes from living life on your own terms, and to become whatever you want to be. True freedom can only come from living life in line with the will of God. Only Through Him will you be able to live your true purpose and become divinely empowered.
The first scripture that I heard which had me delving deeper into the Bible was Matthew 6:26-34
26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
It basically means giving up all the things that you once thought would make you happy. Your job, your relationship, your habits, your thought patterns. All the things that you created and are holding on to so tightly so that you could live what you thought would be a happy life.
When I think back at my past life, I always have this image of a wall , a wall with many holes and water is seeping through. I’m trying to block all the holes with my body, with my hands, my elbows, my feet, my head, but more holes keep poking through. Until I drown.
Until I admit that I can’t do anything without my Lord and Saviour. When you choose to seek the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, all other things will be added.
Only then will you live life in pure joy. A joy that nothing or no one in this world can offer you. Only Jesus can.