I loved reading the book of Exodus. It’s an exciting story of How God saves the Israelites from slavery, using Moses as a prophet ( a man with a supposed speech impediment), taking them through the wilderness and to the promised land.
As He did with me. As He wants to do with all of us.
God literally and biblically took me through the wilderness. Saving me from the slavery of my own worldly desires, of my own sins. From the confusion of Sri Lanka, to the ruggedness of Tanzania, to the solitude of the Laurentian woods in Canada.
Until I got it.
Until I finally understood.
Though I received my baptism in March, It is only this past summer that I can truly say that my heart has understood the significance of the cross.
That I finally understood that what Jesus did for us at Calvary hill is the only hope for humanity.
I come from a background where we mocked it, we would joke about His dying for our sins.
So the unveiling was long. And I pray that you are not as stubborn as I was.
Even after my baptism, living in a church, I would spend my free time, looking for loopholes. I spent months researching :
Did Jesus go to India, maybe that was where He learned some supernatural tricks? Are Krishna and Jesus similar? The lost years of Jesus?
I was listening to Alan Watts again. I even walked away from God for a few days, looking for answers in the same places I use to, meditation. And the devil is so sly, in those few days, he sent me a man, exactly the type I like, a man that told me that he had dreams and visions of Jesus. He would tell me that Jesus would visit him and told him that He didn’t die on the cross. The temptation to walk away from Jesus was so strong.
But this time I saw it.
I saw what was happening to me when I was walking away from God.
And I came running back, asking for forgiveness for my weaknesses. Once again, He took me back with open arms.
Even then, It still took me a few more months.
God is so good. He is so patient. Waiting for me, as I researched into every single doubt.
As I have mentioned before, I didn’t want to believe. I really really wanted to become a Tibetan Bhuddist.
Buddha tells us to have right thoughts, right words, right actions. But nowhere does he tells us how. Because I wanted to, I truly wanted to have right thoughts, say right words and do right actions but sometimes I didn’t. Sometimes I had thoughts of lust, I spoke words of pride, and I acted out of greed ….
the hours I have spent in yoga and meditation, torturing myself over why did I have thoughts I didn’t want to have.
In the Quran, it states that Jesus did not die on the cross and thus was not resurrected. Islam teaches that on judgement day, your good deeds and your bad deeds will be measured out. Until then, you don’t know if you’re going up or down. Until then, you have to work for your salvation, following the five pillars.
Islam , Bhuddihsm and other spiritual paths require you to work your way to Moksha, nirvana, paradise, etc.
But the cross.
The cross is a gift.
A gift from our Heavenly Father.
God loves us, He loves you, so much that He sent his only Son to die for us, for you, so that we could live in eternity with Him.
He would rather die than be without you.
And all you have to do is have faith.
Isn’t it perfect?
I know for some humans it’s difficult to swallow, as our ego wants to prove our righteousness, that we can do it ourselves, that we are good. For others , it’s difficult to believe that someone loves you that much, that you are worthy of such perfect pure love.
I pray that God opens your heart and your mind to understand the perfection of it all, from the beginning to the end. It was the only way, and it’s so perfect.
By Grace Through Faith
2 And you were dead in the trespasses and sins 2 in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— 3 among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body[a] and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind.[b] 4 But[c] God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, 5 even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—6 and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.8 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, 9 not a result of works, so that no one may boast. 10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.